Tautan Hati

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.

Tautan Hati... latest novel yang baru aku baca.. before that aku baca novel KuTemu CintaNya..

actually ... Fatimah Syarha dengan Dr.Farhan Hadi ni husband and wife..  

okeylah... malam ni terpanggil nak menulis tentang macam mana aku boleh tahu perihal islam dan hukum hakam(sikit je tak banyak yg aku tahu)... aku tahu semua bila aku mula minat dengan novel-novel islamik...

You know what?

penulis-penulis macam Fatimah Syarha, Dr.Farhan Hadi, and Hilal Asyraf memang menulis dari hati mereka ikhlas lillahitaala...

macam mana aku boleh tahu mereka ikhlas?

pesanan mereka meresap menusuk dalam kalbuku.... tulisan mereka menggetarkan jiwaku... dan aku menitiskan air mata ..betapa besar ,luas nikmat Allah... bahkan tulisan-tulisan mereka lebih mengajak manusia kembali menyembah tuhan yang satu...

Hidayah Allah tu akan turun dengan pelbagai cara bukan? ...  dalam buku Tautan Kasih ni aku kagum dengan watak-watak seperti Asiah Yusra dan Elya Khadeeja... sememangnya mereka persis Srikandi Umar dan Srikandi Abu Bakar...  akhowat Thanawi dari Taman Islami...Allah..subhanallah... sungguh aku jatuh cinta dengan mereka...walau hanya mereka ini watak dalam novel itu tapi aku yakin memang ada lagi muslimah-muslimah seperti itu...

Aku cemburu... cemburu kerana aku tak seperti mereka...sungguh terjaga ..mawar yang berduri... sedangkan aku? aku yang kerap kali futhur... Allah tegur dengan pelbagai cara tiap kali aku lalai...

aku terbayangkan bilakah tiba masa untuk aku dapat berhalaqah dengan pencinta-pencinta Ilahi... sungguh lain dengan sekeliling aku...  entah bagaimana aku kenal erti tarbiyah? ... aku tak pernah walau sekali merasakan apa itu usrah...apa itu halaqah...bahkan kalau bertanya sama teman-temanku... mungkin ia kelihatan lain ..

Aku jatuh cinta dengan akhowat Thanawi.. menunduk menjaga pandangan, hati bersih.. sentiasa tersenyum, kuat tahajjud... ikhlas dalam setiap perkara... sampai aku rasa aku ingin jadi seperti mereka...  lain benar aku rasakan.... aku ingin jadi seperti gadis-gadis Thanawi yg sentiasa menjaga imej Islam... hati mereka lebih kepada menjaga imej, ukhwah Islam...  takut melakukan dosa...


Ya Allah, betapa jauh bezanya aku dan mereka...

sungguh, aku tak tipu...aku sangat-sangat cemburu kerana aku tak setanding mereka..

tarbiyah dari secebis buku.... :)


aku terfikir.... andai aku punya anak perempuan suatu masa kelak... aku ingin anak gadisku menjadi gadis thanawi yang terpelihara... mujahidah ansorullah.. ...   namun aku terlebih dahulu merubah diriku menjadi seorang muslimah dan mukminah yang taatkan tuhannya.... aku futur namun aku tidak mahu berkeadaan begini selamanya..


aku pasti bangkit.... InsyaAllah...Allahuakbar...

I love my sisters.... I want to be like them... I never seen them..but one day I will meet them...

I'm not trying to show I'm a goody-goody, Allah knows this is personal to me, but I just want those brokenhearted and hopeless romantic girls to reflect...

I'm not really bothered about not meeting my "Mr. Darcy" or "Prince Charming" or whatever those fairytales call it.
If his name has been written down next to mine billions of years ago by the Magestic, the One who controls all things,
then no force on Earth would be able to stop us from being together.
I'm more worried about giving away half of my heart to the wrong man,
and being left with only the other half to present to the man who deserves the whole, complete form of it...
I'm more worried about failing to preserve my dignity and modesty, which I know is my responsibility as a Muslim woman... And where my true beauty and value as a woman lies in the eyes of Allah...
I'm more worried about basing my relationship with the opposite gender in a way that incurs the displeasure of Allah...
I'm more worried about succumbing to the tricks of Shaitan Laknatullah...
I'm more worried about regretting something I have done in the past, which could never be undone no matter how much I want it to be...
And I'm definitely not about to spend my whole life being heartbroken from one failed relationship to another...

What I know is when the right time has come, and meeting someone is going to be good for me, Allah will make it happen, as I'm certain my Creator only wants the best for me...
However, if I don't meet him, It's not because I've never went out 'dating around'...
it's not because I was this strict conservative Muslimah who was old-fashioned and stupid,
It's because Allah has decided not to write any names beside mine, and He would know what is best for me, better than myself.
I would never regret being the way I am, because it's all for Allah, and for that I know He would never make me regret anything :)

Oh Allah, please give us the strength to be your obedient servants,
make us meet our partners in a way that has your approval and blessings, instead of your displeasure...
And reward us by completing our stories with happy endings in this world and the Hereafter, Insyallah :)

ps. By not receiving any love from a guy, you learn to love yourself :)

“ entahlah dik, abang pun tak tahu nak buat macam mana lagi”

“wanita itu dipilih kerana 4 perkara . Rupa parasnya, nasab keturunannya, hartanya dan akhir sekali agamanya… tapi wahai abangku, fadzfar bi dzatid deen taribat yadaak. Pilihlah yang beragama nescaya engkau akan beruntung”. Aku lihat senyuman dibibirnya terukir, aku turut menguntum senyuman.

“pandainya adik abang ni yer.. 8 tahun , satu tempoh yan cukup lama. Kalau ikutkan hati ingin sahaja abang melamar kak Maziah  tapi hati kak Maziah bukan pada abang.”

“ Apa yang buat abang jatuh hati dengan kak Maziah?”

“ Dia biasa-biasa sahaja, tak cantik sangat tapi cukup menenangkan abang dan menggoyahkan perasaan ni. Tiba-tiba hati abang ni rasa mengilu”

“agamanya?”

“ boleh dididik. InsyaALLAH”

“InsyaAllah.” Aku segera membalas

“Abang baru nak mula belajar semula. Ilmu lebih pentingkan?”

“yup, sudah-sudahlah mengilu dihati”

“fitrah dan rindu ni buat abang tak senang duduk”. Aku tersenyum lagi mendengar kata-katanya.

“Biasalah tu bang. Enjoy your feeling”

Lantas aku teringat kembali mimpiku semalam. Dia buat sekian lama, muncul dalam mimpi dan seperti biasa, aku melihatnya dari tingkap dan pandangan kami bersatu.. dalam mimpi … namun ada ketika aku masih ingat lagi tika dia mencuri pandang. Jujurnya aku yang lebih kerap memandangnya berbanding dia.

Sama juga seperti abang Hisyam , lelaki yang aku suka ini tidak punya apa-apa kelebihan seperti lelaki-lelaki hebat yang lain. Cuma bila melihatnya, buat aku ingin tersenyum . Menyukainya bukan kerana dia seorang lelaki kaya, kacak atau sebaliknya. Tetapi menyukainya kerana perkara-perkara yang membuat hati aku tertarik walau perkara-perkara itu hanyalah sesuatu yang tak masuk diakal. Caranya membersih, mengemas dan seorang yang sukar untuk ditafsir. Cinta? Wallahualam. Tidakku pasti adakah ia cinta tapi ia satu perasaan suka . Abang Hisyam mencintai kak Maziah namun , hati kak Maziah bukan padanya. Kak Maziah seorang gadis Kelantan,  belajar di UiTM Shah Alam. Orangnya manis. Aku juga suka melihat kak Maziah.

“Dee.” Nama aku disebut.

“ Ya. Kenapa?

“bila masuk belajar?

“bulan depan , masuk semester 2. “

“ooo.” Aku dan abang Hisyam berpandangan seketika, sepertinya kami tiada topic untuk dibincangkan.

“Dengar cerita, abang masuk sekolah pondok Darul Kautsar di Kelantan . Betul ke?”

“yup. Hurm, umur pun dah 24 tahun, 8 tahun abang kat sana nanti Dee. Entah berapa kali baru boleh balik Sabah dalam tempoh masa ni. Mak abang pun sakit. “

“takpe la, abang pergi belajar bukan buat apa “

Aku memandangnya. Aku tahu masih ada yang tak sudah dalam hatinya. Cinta?

Bikin manusia jadi berdebar-debar dan teruja… seperti mana aku.

~TWILIGHT~ NEW MOON

On her 18th birthday, Bella Swan wakes up from a dream in which she sees herself as an old woman. She expresses her distaste with growing older than her boyfriend Edward Cullen, a vampire who stopped aging physically at 17. Despite her lack of enthusiasm, Edward's adoptive family throws Bella a birthday party. While unwrapping a gift, Bella gets a paper cut, causing Edward's brother, Jasper, to become overwhelmed by her blood's scent and attempt to kill her. Realizing the danger that he and his family pose to Bella, Edward ends their relationship, and the Cullens leave Forks, Washington.


Edward's departure leaves Bella heartbroken and depressed for months; however, when her father, Charlie, finally decides to send her to live with her mother in Florida, Bella refuses and agrees to spend more time with her friends. After seeing a movie with Jessica, Bella sees a group of men on motorcycles. This reminds her of when Edward previously rescued her from an assault, and she sees his image warning her to stay away. Bella discovers that all thrill-seeking activities evoke Edward's preserved image. She is also comforted by her deepening friendship with Jacob Black, a cheerful companion who eases her pain over losing Edward. When Jacob suddenly begins avoiding her, Bella discovers he has become a werewolf, an age-old enemy of vampires. Jacob's pack members are on constant patrol for Victoria, a vampire who wants to kill Bella to avenge the death of her mate by Edward's hand, leaving Jacob little time to spend with her. Alone again, Bella returns to seeking thrill-inducing activities.


Through a series of miscommunications, Edward believes Bella has killed herself by jumping off a cliff into the ocean. Distraught over her supposed suicide, Edward travels to Italy to provoke the Volturi—a powerful vampire coven capable of killing him—by exposing himself as a vampire to humans. Alice, Edward's sister, and Bella rush to Italy to save Edward, and arrive just in time to stop him. It is then that Edward tells Bella that he always loved her and only left to protect her. However, the Volturi determine that Bella, a human who knows that vampires exist, must either be killed or transformed into a vampire herself. Alice stops them from killing her by sharing her premonition with Aro (Michael Sheen)—a Volturi elder who is able to read thoughts through touch—in which Bella has been transformed. Soon after, they return to Forks and Bella forgives Edward for leaving her. The Cullens vote in favor of Bella being transformed into a vampire, much to Edward and Rosalie's dismay. Later on, Jacob reminds Edward of the treaty the Cullens made with the Quileute tribe: they will not attack each other, as long as the Cullens do not bite any humans—an action necessary for Bella's transformation. The movie concludes with Edward telling Bella that he will change her into a vampire, but only if she marries him first.

~TWILIGHT~ ECLIPSE

In Seattle, not far from Forks, Victoria (Bryce Dallas Howard) attacks and bites Riley Biers (Xavier Samuel), in order to begin creating an army of newborns set to destroy Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart). Back in Forks, Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson) and Bella discuss the complications of becoming an immortal vampire. At 18 years old, one year older than the age Edward was when he became a vampire, Bella expresses her aversion to the idea of marrying so young, though Edward refuses to turn her until they are married and she's had various human experiences she would otherwise miss. While Charlie Swan (Billy Burke) investigates the disappearance of Riley Biers, Edward suspects his disappearance was caused by the newborn vampires. Furthering his suspicions is the intrusion of Riley into Bella's room.

Although Edward fears for her safety, Bella insists that Jacob Black (Taylor Lautner) and the rest of the werewolf pack would never harm her, but Edward is still not convinced. Bella goes to La Push to see Jacob, and returns home unharmed. During one of her visits, Jacob confesses that he is in love with Bella, and forcefully kisses her. Furious, she punches him and breaks her hand, and Edward later threatens Jacob and tells him to only kiss her if she asks him to. Bella even revokes the invitations of Jacob and his pack members to her graduation party, but when Jacob apologizes for his behavior, she forgives him.

Meanwhile, Alice (Ashley Greene) sees a vision that the newborn army is attacking Forks led by Riley Biers. Jacob, accompanied by Quil (Tyson Houseman) and Embry (Kiowa Gordon) overhear this, which leads to an alliance between the Cullens and Wolf pack. Later, the Cullens and the wolves agree to a meeting place and time to train and discuss strategy. During the training Jasper (Jackson Rathbone) explains to Bella that he was created by a vampire named Maria to control a newborn army. He hated his original existence and upon meeting Alice, joined the Cullens with her. Bella sees the true bond between a mated vampire pair and begins to understand Jasper better. Despite her reluctance to marry, Bella realizes that spending eternity with Edward is more important to her than anything else and agrees to marry him. Edward and Bella camp up in the mountains to hide Bella from the bloodthirsty newborns. During the night, Bella overhears a conversation between Edward and Jacob, in which they temporarily put aside their hatred towards each other. In the morning, Jacob overhears Edward and Bella discussing their engagement and becomes very upset. Before he can run off to get himself killed in the fight with the newborns, Bella desperately asks him to kiss her, and she realizes that she has fallen in love with him. Edward finds out about the kiss but is not angry, as Bella says she loves him more than Jacob.
When Victoria finds Bella's hiding spot, Edward kills her while Seth kills Riley. The Cullens and the Quileute wolves, meanwhile, destroy her "army", though Jacob is injured saving Leah Clearwater from a newborn. Several members of the Volturi arrive to deal with the newborn army. They also see that the Cullens are guarding the newborn, Bree Tanner (Jodelle Ferland), who had refused to fight and surrendered to Carlisle. Jane (Dakota Fanning) tortures Bree to get information, then instructs Felix to kill her, despite the Cullens' efforts to spare her. When Jane notes that Caius will find it interesting that Bella is still human, Bella informs her that the date for her transformation has been set. Bella visits the injured Jacob to tell him that even though she is in love with him, she has chosen to be with Edward. Saddened by her choice, Jacob reluctantly agrees to stop trying to come between her and Edward.

Bella and Edward go to their meadow, where she tells him she has decided to do things his way: get married, make love, then be transformed into a vampire. She also explains that she never has been normal and never will be; she's felt out of place her entire life, but when she is in Edward's world she feels stronger and complete. At the end of the story they decide they need to tell Charlie about their engagement.

~TWILIGHT` BREAKING DAWN PART 1~

The film starts out as Bella Swan plans her wedding with the Cullen family. Before the wedding, Edward Cullen tells Bella that he has murdered people in the past. Undaunted by this, Bella and Edward go ahead with the wedding. During the reception following her wedding to Edward, Bella is visited by her friend Jacob Black. When Bella admits that she and Edward plan to consummate their marriage during their honeymoon, Jacob becomes angry but is held back by his pack. He then runs off into the woods, and Edward takes an upset Bella back to the reception.

The couple spends their honeymoon on the Cullens' private Brazilian island. Although hesitant, Edward has sex with Bella for the first time. After, Edward realizes that he bruised Bella's arm, back and shoulders during sex and he vows to never be intimate with her again, much to her disappointment; he later gives in to her seductions. Two weeks into their honeymoon, Bella discovers that she is pregnant with a baby growing at an extraordinarily accelerated rate. After consulting with Carlisle, they rush back to Forks. Bella refuses to consider having an abortion, and enlists Rosalie's help to protect her wishes.

Opposed to Sam Uley's plans to kill Bella and her child, which is thought to be a demon, Jacob angrily leaves his pack and arrives at the Cullens' to protect Bella; Seth and Leah Clearwater join him, forming a new wolf pack. As the pregnancy progresses, Bella's health severely deteriorates. As a last resort, she begins drinking blood, which satisfies the fetus' vampiric thirst and allows her to regain some strength. Soon afterward, Bella goes into a painful labor and gives birth to her child, Renesmee, a conflation of the names of Bella's mother, Renée and Edward's adoptive mother, Esme. To save her life, Edward injects Bella's heart with his venom to transform her into a vampire, but nothing seems to happen and Bella is thought to be dead. Greatly distraught, Jacob attempts to kill the baby, but stops when he realizes he has imprinted on the child.

When the werewolves learn of Bella's "death", they attack the Cullens' house in an attempt to kill the baby. They are forced to stop after learning Jacob has imprinted on Renesmee (imprinting is the involuntary response when a werewolf finds his soul mate; thus under their wolf law, Renesmee cannot be harmed). After Bella is thought to be deceased, Carlisle notices there's a slight pulse and tells Edward and the rest of the Cullens as they clean the body. Soon after, her wounds suddenly heal as the venom spreads through her body. Bella's heart finally ceases, and she awakens as a newborn vampire.
In a post-credits scene, the Volturi hear about Bella's conversion; Aro notes that it does not end their dispute with the Cullens, proclaiming, "They have something I want".

TWILIGHT BREAKING DAWN PART 2(SYNOPSIS)

Continues from Breaking Dawn - Part 1

"My time as a human was over. But I've never felt more alive.
I was born to be a vampire."

―Bella

The movie picks up where the previous movie left off, right when Bella Cullen opens her eyes after her transformation into a vampire. She savors a moment with Edward Cullen and her newly developed beauty. She requests to meet her daughter, Renesmee, but Edward tells her she needs to hunt first. During the hunt, she quickly learns to harness her senses and abilities. When the scent of a human hiker crosses her nose, she immediately attempts to hunt the hiker, until Edward tells her not to. She quickly comes to her senses and feeds off a mountain lion.

When they return home, Jacob uses himself as a test subject to see if she is tame enough to meet her daughter. Once she passes the test, she goes on to meet Renesmee, who shows her her first memory of Bella as a human. Bella then finds out that Jacob has imprinted on Renesmee and angrily confronts him about it. Her anger escalates when Jacob calls her daughter "Nessie" - a nickname derived from the Loch Ness Monster - to the point that she attacks him. Seth attempts to interfere and gets thrown into a tree by Bella herself and she apologize to him after.

At nightfall, Alice takes them to the cottage which will be Bella's, Edward's and Renesmee's home. Bella and Edward spend the night at the cottage, then return the next morning, where they discuss how Bella will fake her own death to keep Charlie from finding out about her new situation (her being a new vampire and Renesmee's existence). Jacob, upset by the separation from Renesmee, runs to Charlie to show him his ability to transform into a wolf, then explains that Bella has changed in order to get better from her "illness". Charlie goes to confront Bella, who tells him that she can only give limited information. Then he meets Renesmee, the "adopted daughter" of Bella and Edward, but he figures out the truth when he sees her hereditary brown eyes. Emmett challenges Bella to an arm wrestling match, which she wins due to her newborn superior strength.
Sam's and Jacob's packs resolve their differences. Renesmee's rapid growth causes worries to the Cullens, who plan to travel to Brazil to learn about the Ticuna legends that may tell them how Renesmee will turn out in the future.

Months later, Irina comes to Forks and misidentifies Renesmee as an "immortal child," a child who has been turned into a vampire when she sees her from a distance. She then travels to Italy to inform the Volturi of this matter, which triggers Alice's vision of their doom. In hopes of resolving the matter peacefully, the Cullens set out to find their friends (the Denali, Egyptian, Irish, and Romanian covens, as well as some nomads) from around the world to stand as witnesses and prove to the Volturi that Renesmee is not an immortal child. Meanwhile, Bella finds out that she has the power to block psychic powers, and begins practicing how to use it. The packs are also expanded due to the increasing numbers of vampires near the area.

Bella finds a clue left by Alice, who has left the family with Jasper, and goes to find J. Jenks, a lawyer who has been forging illegal documents for the Cullens for decades. He gives Bella a set of IDs, passports, and driver's license forged for Renesmee and Jacob.
Alistair, one of the witnesses, leaves for his own survival. The Cullens and their allies gather around a bonfire the night before the confrontation and share war-stories. Upon confronting the gathered Cullen witnesses, the Volturi discover that they have been misinformed and immediately execute Irina for her mistake. However, they remain undecided on whether Renesmee should be viewed as a threat to vampires' secret existence. Alice and Jasper return in time to present their "proof" that Renesmee poses no danger, but Aro is determined to destroy the Cullens. Carlisle initiates the battle with Aro, and is immediately destroyed. The rest of the Cullens, Volturi and their respective allies engage in a huge battle, killing Jasper, Seth, Leah and multiple others while Renesmee escapes with Jacob. Aro personally attacks Bella and Edward after most of his coven was destroyed, which results in his own destruction.
The scene is then brought back to the moment when Alice "shows" Aro her proof, revealing that the entire battle scene was a vision of his demise if he proceeds with his plan to destroy them. The new witnesses, Huilen and her half-vampire nephew, Nahuel, tell their story, revealing that they are actually much like pure vampires, but merely more human. The Volturi then leave in peace, and the Cullens take a moment to rejoice in their victory. The Romanians demand to launch an attack, but no one is willing to follow, prompting their ambition to an end.
As their friends leave, Edward tells Jacob that Renesmee is lucky to have him. He asks if he should start calling Edward "dad" now, but he disagrees immediately. While the four of them share a moment together, Alice shares a vision with Edward regarding the happy future of Bella, Edward, Jacob and a fully matured Renesmee.

Bella and Edward's final scene.

Months later, back in the meadow, Bella removes her shield to give Edward access to her thoughts for the first time. She tells him that no one has ever loved anyone as much as she loves him, but he disagrees saying there is one exception. He then asks her to remove her shield again, but she tells him they have forever to work on it.
The movie concludes with the couple kissing, and the saga ends.